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Lilytuft

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  1. Making a vent post doesn't count as continuosly spreading negativity in the community, right?

    Sorry if this comes off as begging for attention

    None of you should feel pressured to read this wall of text. I just need to get this out. You're not a therapist and aren't required to help especially since this isn't anything serious, just my self-caused problems. I'm fully aware that there are people out there with real problems that are way worse than mine.

    This is gonna be badly worded and full of typos. I'm shaking and should be asleep. I'll probably regret this in the morning.

    Now, this isn't about something going badly in my life or anything. I'm fine. My life is fine. Today was a good day, at least until I got out of school and spent the rest of the day doing literally nothing productive. I couldn't even start my homework. But I had fun practising for the school dance and the sky was pretty and I loved history class. And that last part hurts because it's a reminder that I was a person with actual interests (besides whatever book or series I'm into at the moment) once.

    When homeschool started back in 2020 I lost my ability to get things done. I had already struggled with personal projects but since then it extended to schoolwork as well. And that hasn't changed even now that school's normal again. My schoolwork piles up and I get too stressed to fo any of it. oAnd as a result I feel like any time I'm not doing school assignments I'm wasting time. I'm gonna be 18 next summer and I can't even go to bed in time! Without noticing I've slowly given up/forgotten most of my interests and become a boring shell of a person. I've spent so long telling myself I'm nothing special that it's become reality. Before I thought I was just moving on to different things and that the only constant hoby was art, but the fact is I haven't really gotten any new interests to replace the old ones. I see something I used to be into and I go "Oh I used to love that! I should do that again sometime" but I never do because I always have something more important I should be doing. And the worst thing is, it doesn't just apply to hobbies. I feel like I don't appreciate my rats nearly enough. /TW animal death (This may also be because of their short lifespan. I remember having a hard time getting attached to Pippuri and Papu after we lost out previous rats. Luckily I ended up forming a really close bond with Papu, but she died at the end of last summer at only a little over a year old. I just don't have such a close relationship with the rest of the pack)

    If you made it this far, thank you. If you have a moment, could you let me know what kind of a person you see me as? (No pressure, feel free to ignore this) It doesn't have to be overly positive, in fact, if you outright hate me, let me know! But seriously, you can include negative things if you want. Makes it feel more honest if anything

    You know, I think part of the reason I started thinking about this is that I googled the meaning of a song called Suurin Tragedia ("The Greatest Tragedy") and found out it's about how perhaps the most tragic thing for an average (Finnish) person living in a town in the modern times is the fear of not living an interesting life

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  2. I keep getting ideas for niche drawings but by the time I get requests for that specific thing I've usually already moved onto a different style

    So here you can submit a bunch of nichelings that may or may not be used for drawings in whatever completely random inspiration I get next. unfortunately I may not be able to post them all yet since I don't know the current whereabouts of my chamera charger

    There's no limit to how many nichelings you can submit since I won't be doing them in order anyways. Feel free to list any additional details you'd want included

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  3. On 11/12/2021 at 10:22 PM, Lilytuft with antlers said:

    I can get you full pictures of the five or so pages I have so far :)

    Does anyone know where my camera charger is?

    Also please remind me of stuff I've promised to do because I forget things

  4. On 7/1/2021 at 4:49 AM, Lilytuft with antlers said:

    Had to rush because the deadline was shortened. I will finish this properly later

    Legend says she completely forgot she even drew that in the first place and never finished it...

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