i feel like im a constant disappointment to everyone i know, hell, im barley able to make real life friends, and if i manage to- i feel like im a constant burden to their existence. i feel like nobody ever wants me around because im annoying as hell. nobody wants to read my entire paragraphs about me ranting about stuff i like, but im interested in what others have to say and what they like. ill listen to their problems but i know they don't care enough to listen to mine. nobody ever wants to hang out with me but the moment one of my other friends has nothing to do, im there to keep them entertained. its always "where's [[friend]]? are they ok? i haven't seen them in a while,," but nobody ever asks where I am or how I'M doing. hell, lets face it. im only there for their entertainment and when i fail to make them happy they just throw me away like the garbage i am. or maybe i have it all wrong and im not funny, or cool, or fun to be around, and they don't hang out with me for a reason. i feel like they all have their other friends and im just another backup. i feel like i bother them by just existing. i probably sound selfish as hell but god damn i want someone to will be there for me too, im tired of just being ignored constantly, and as much as i enjoy attempting to help them with their problems, im tired of having nobody listen to mine. i don't even know if what i do helps them but im trying my best, i cant to it all by myself and sometimes i have my own issues. i just want to be happy like everyone else.