well yeah it was what you were taught at school to not do that when the school really should have taught you that everyone has power.
I didn't understand how solo lore works so I interrupted and I'm sorry about that. It's also always okay to ask for help if you need something, I figured out a new way to give people creative and make sure they don't abuse it, so now I'll allow people to have creative if they need it. Also we all make excuses for why we did somethings, or why something happened, it's how we make conspiriacy theories, and why our old understanding of fire was wrong, because we took the simplest understanding, and when we reexamined it it was wrong.
You're just one person so you can't easily fix your own mistakes, that usually takes training. Even so you can still try if you want to, and you can train yourself. I for one enjoy watching complaints and find them interesting. It could very well be a manipulation and I have had that in the back of my mind but if you were it would be less effeciant then trying to look like you're well standing. If you were like that then you could manipulate us and brush it off. However, manipulation is usually not done on purpose, but by accident.
Remember, we're a team and we're supposed to help eachother out. That means it's okay for you to take a break sometimes.